I’ve written this post a thousand times in my mind, but I promised my sister that I wouldn’t write it in anger, I think there’s been much too much of that lately.
There’s been such ugliness in the past few days I think many of us find it hard to actually comprehend.
I think much has been said before in other posts, so I won’t be rehashing the events.
I think this is a good moment to go back and think of our own decisions, actions and reactions that have led to this point.
I’m not pointing fingers at anyone but myself.
By ignoring what others were doing I allowed for the situation to escalate to the point where I actually feel ashamed of myself.
Would it have made a difference if I spoke up?
I would have ended up under fire too and I genuinely thought that people would get bored of hurling abuse and would move on to something a bit more creative.
No excuses, though.
As it stands now, I feel like many of us are proclaiming the fandom/bullying equivalent of “I smoked but I didn’t inhale”.
I didn’t participate but I did nothing, I coward away because I was afraid at what I’d find and what I’d learn about people I considered my online friends.
I don’t know about you but I want to take this time to think about what I can do in future to prevent such horrible things from happening again.
I’d also need to apologise for being such a shitty friend.
I should have been the one to try to protect you from the horrible things people where doing and it turned out you were protecting me so I wouldn’t be disappointed when I learned of their true nature.
I think we could all use a moment to think, I know I do…